So, as much as I wanted to post, things have been a bit crazy around here…
I GOT A NEW JOB!
Yea, scary stuff for a caregiver. I had been with my old company for almost 12 years… moving from department to department and growing that way. I was there when the quad and I got engaged, married, got our first dog, bought our first house, and had the kid.
And I was there when the quad became a quad…
The people there are my family. And notice I say are… although I’m no longer there and officially at my new gig. Those people ARE my family.
The support that they gave me when the quad got hurt was incredible.
They raised money for us. They gave me their vacation days so I could stay in Atlanta with the quad during rehab. They sent care packages which were AMAZING!
They supported us when we needed it most.
And leaving there was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do but it was time.
Staying there meant holding onto the past and I’ve realized that I’ve done that for too long. It was time to let go. So I jumped.
It was scary as hell… but I think I landed in a wonderful place that will help me grow in my career and as a person.
And the other big exciting news is that I have a new niece! She arrived a smidge early and took her time actually coming out, much to my sister’s annoyance… 24 hours after my sister’s water breaking, 5 hours of pushing and a c-section later, my p-ray arrived.
She’s gorgeous. (Obviously since she’s related to me… ha!)
I’ve been able to hold her and cuddle her and love her as much as an auntie needs to… and the quad and kid have been able to meet her as well. It’s new for the kid since she’s the first (and was the only) grandkid on my parent’s side. So, these past few weeks have been tough on her.
She hates change like her mom…
The quad couldn’t meet her for a few weeks since my sister was sick and well, the quad and a sick hospital patient don’t jive. AND they live on the second floor of their condo and there is no elevator… So we had to plan a meeting.
And, of course, I was reminded of when the quad got injured…
The kid was almost 6 months old when he broke his neck. He missed out on so much of her life… for so long… It was so hard.
Now I wonder how life will be as p-ray’s uncle. It was a tough thing to think about although I know it will be great. But, like with the kid, he can’t hold her. Or hug her. Or feed her. Or teach her how to ski. Or take her alone places until she’s older.
To say that thinking about all of that was hard is an understatement. It was incredibly painful since it brought up bad memories. And it still stings.
But, this is our life. And she will be loved. And that’s what matters. The quad is an amazing dad and is already an amazing uncle to our other niece and nephew. I have no doubt that he’ll be an amazing uncle to another niece.
So, I’m doing my best to let go of the past. That’s been the theme of the past few weeks…
Here’s to new beginnings for us all.